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Untitled by Randomlycandy4life Untitled :iconrandomlycandy4life:Randomlycandy4life 3 0 Amos Celtic by Randomlycandy4life Amos Celtic :iconrandomlycandy4life:Randomlycandy4life 3 0 Maybe we're all insane on the inside. by Randomlycandy4life Maybe we're all insane on the inside. :iconrandomlycandy4life:Randomlycandy4life 3 2 Sinful Blythe Celtic- Tea Stains by Randomlycandy4life Sinful Blythe Celtic- Tea Stains :iconrandomlycandy4life:Randomlycandy4life 2 0 Amos Celtic-Tea Stains by Randomlycandy4life Amos Celtic-Tea Stains :iconrandomlycandy4life:Randomlycandy4life 0 0 Notepad, DHMISf by Randomlycandy4life Notepad, DHMISf :iconrandomlycandy4life:Randomlycandy4life 0 2 Chibi time~ Eyeless Jack by Randomlycandy4life Chibi time~ Eyeless Jack :iconrandomlycandy4life:Randomlycandy4life 8 0 Ticci Toby by Randomlycandy4life Ticci Toby :iconrandomlycandy4life:Randomlycandy4life 0 0 Zak and Sinful by Randomlycandy4life Zak and Sinful :iconrandomlycandy4life:Randomlycandy4life 0 0 sinful chibi time by Randomlycandy4life sinful chibi time :iconrandomlycandy4life:Randomlycandy4life 1 6 sinful's branches by Randomlycandy4life sinful's branches :iconrandomlycandy4life:Randomlycandy4life 1 0 never give a.... by Randomlycandy4life never give a.... :iconrandomlycandy4life:Randomlycandy4life 1 0 self portrait by Randomlycandy4life self portrait :iconrandomlycandy4life:Randomlycandy4life 2 0 laughing Jack sketch by Randomlycandy4life laughing Jack sketch :iconrandomlycandy4life:Randomlycandy4life 2 0 jeff catch phase by Randomlycandy4life jeff catch phase :iconrandomlycandy4life:Randomlycandy4life 2 0 I see you by Randomlycandy4life I see you :iconrandomlycandy4life:Randomlycandy4life 1 4


Order of the Skies - Faesilz by Mukimillia Order of the Skies - Faesilz :iconmukimillia:Mukimillia 4 4 Kaneki Ken by Mukimillia Kaneki Ken :iconmukimillia:Mukimillia 6 5 Obsidyan by Mukimillia Obsidyan :iconmukimillia:Mukimillia 6 8 Tiger Lily by Mukimillia Tiger Lily :iconmukimillia:Mukimillia 4 6 Sparklers - HAPPY 2015 by Mukimillia Sparklers - HAPPY 2015 :iconmukimillia:Mukimillia 12 11 Masquerade - Elias by Mukimillia Masquerade - Elias :iconmukimillia:Mukimillia 13 16 Greys no.3 by Mukimillia Greys no.3 :iconmukimillia:Mukimillia 9 3 Bruno the bro by Mukimillia Bruno the bro :iconmukimillia:Mukimillia 6 5 Courage by Mukimillia Courage :iconmukimillia:Mukimillia 8 4 Yvonne by Mukimillia Yvonne :iconmukimillia:Mukimillia 8 7 Happy Valentine's Day! by Mukimillia Happy Valentine's Day! :iconmukimillia:Mukimillia 6 3 miyage chan. by yagamisiro miyage chan. :iconyagamisiro:yagamisiro 198 7 Girl of long hair by yagamisiro Girl of long hair :iconyagamisiro:yagamisiro 185 5 French bread by yagamisiro French bread :iconyagamisiro:yagamisiro 94 2 sit down by yagamisiro sit down :iconyagamisiro:yagamisiro 133 5 Commission: Little Tree by ippus Commission: Little Tree :iconippus:ippus 3,081 215


Sometimes I believe I’m nothing but a worthless rock people use to keep themselves from falling and when they are safe, they toss me away. It’s sad really. How many claims to always be there for you, understand you, help you….and in reality its nothing but bullshit. It makes one reflect on their own self does me anyways.

Today at school my depression came out of no where; it was triggered. I wanted to hide, run out of my classroom and get some fresh air but I couldn't. I was secretly hoping someone, no, that my friends, the twins would see I was not in a normal mood and actually give a damn. They did not however. They never do. They don’t notice anything until I come right out and say it, they never even seen me cry. Why would they? I mean I am just some heartless bitch that feels nothing, that believes crying about personal things are for the weak. Heh, everyone in that class honestly sees me as that? What a bunch of mindless children. It’s amusing hearing them claim to be the IB geniuses. The “examples” for the student body.

What a bunch hypocrites.

Speaks love and friendships and family but does nothing to prove it. Hmm...interesting people I must say. I’m not saying the twins are like that; they have good intentions and have listened to some rants I had with no judgement; but they don’t know anything. They don’t see my face under this mask. Like others, they live in ignorance.

I guess I should give them some credit. Not many people lend their ears to try and see a glimpse of a messed up person’s world. To see what makes somebody like me, head ticks. To see how far down I get pulled while I struggle to swim to the surface for air.

Maybe it would have been better to have stayed distant from the world. To remain looking through the glass on the outside rather than taking a chance and going inside. I should have remained a shadow, something only darkness knows and cares about. Maybe it would be better if I stay away from the twins for a bit.

Running away...I remember Axl telling me that. That I run from friends and get new ones to replace old ones. But I never once did that, I never do that. I held on. I’m always the one holding on to the relationships I have with friends, families, pets...even to my own self. I hold on with all of my strength and beyond that too but in the end I’m always left behind and blamed for things out of my control.

I have been replaced, blamed and abandoned by everyone that came into my life. I raised myself by watching the people around me. I had to fall and continue to fall in order to build the walls I have. I made forces to protect myself for a reason only to have them break because I thought it would be safe to join the world. How stupid could I be? Some friends are worth it I admit but the rest are disappointing me like the rest of the people in my past life.  

Maybe I am going to stay away for a bit, just a bit. I am inclined to a little get away considering I kill myself for them. I earned a break right?

I payed my dues right?


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Candy Del Toro
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Hello everybody~
My name is Candy O_O
Just Candy:)
I'm pretty random...and I am A Christian so Jesus is my man! ;) Some facts about me is I drabble a lot in different things like art and I want to go to art college, school, university??? I'm just a random person all around so if you see this; ENJOY! Oh!
I love writing stories too.


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ChuChuui Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2014  Student
Thank you so much for the fave! its means a ton! <33 //cuddles you! 
Randomlycandy4life Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Awe *cuddles back and giggles* No problem XD
Kaitomo Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2014  Student
Hi person!
Randomlycandy4life Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey there :3
Kaitomo Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2014  Student
Randomlycandy4life Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
emokitten687 Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the favorite! :la:
Much appreciated. :heart:

~Jennie :dalove:
Randomlycandy4life Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Np :)
Y-enter Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2014
I wanted to thank you for the fav, and I just wanted to let you know I do commissions.

If you are interested Check out my DA page.
Randomlycandy4life Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
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